Over the last 3 or 4 months, I've stood back from my life to look at it and frequently thought 'wow. I'm so fucking happy right now' more than I ever have. I don't have a shit load of money or super nice things, but Im working full time, affording a nice apartment on my own[until MJ moves in and cuts my rent in half and multiplies my art production by a fucking krillion.] Im into a fandom Im desperately enjoying, moreso than any others. If you buy the CDs and hit the concerts, nothing...NOTHING compares to how fucking involved you feel with Metalocalypse. It's fucking great.

Despite the setbacks I had over the last few years, I regret nothing. Im glad I dropped out of college. I just found myself this summer and can't possibly imagine trying to establish myself in life and a profession without having achieved this.

Im really digging this living in the present thing. I have NO idea what could happen in the future, and no matter how I prepare for it or work for it, I can never be totally sure what will happen. I refuse to compromise my life, my present, for something that may be.

Im instead gonna ride this wave for awhile, see where it takes me. Im experimenting with a new way of predicting/controlling my own destiny psychically lol.